As in your Pee Hole, which, if you haven’t figured it out, is the little hole at the end of your wiener which can emit a few different things, of which I don’t need to tell you about.

But before I do that, I gotta mention Sonic Youth’s Evol, cause I haven’t listened to it since about 1987 or so, which was (I think) the year Sonic Youth made the record, but that might not be correct. 1984 was The Year, of course, mainly cause we all got treated to Meat Puppets II, Zen Arcade, and Double Nickels on The Dime, almost all in one fell swoop, but here I go digressing again…so I’ll wrap up this paragraph by telling you I was with some friends, and we were talking about Sonic Youth, and that’s when Evol was mentioned, and suddenly I needed to listen to it again, cause it’s been too long since I have, and it was then, as track 1 played, that I realized absolutely nothing goes better with Pee Hole Talk better than Evol, and if you don’t believe me, just listen to it, and that’s that.

Whew!

On to the Pee Hole: we all have one (duh!), and it’s the ending of our urethra; in dudes the urethra is about six inches long, and it’s divided into four parts, and if you need to know anymore about the physiology of it, you can do what I did and read about it here.

You might want to have track 6 from Evol playing — “Death To Our Friends” — while reading the sciency part about your urethra, as it makes wholly appropriate background music.

I might blog too much about Adrianna, but hey, oh well if you don’t like it. And we’re sitting at coffee the other day when she tells me about her new sex toy, which happens to be a living, breathing man whose name I’ll also not mention here, and she mentions this dude to me cause he likes some pretty twisted shit, which is OK by me, cause I do, too.

But not this twisted.

Cause Dude wants Adrianna to drop “sounds” down his Pee Hole.

It’s not even 8am when she tells me this, so my heads still swimming in sleep, but that sure as fuck woke me up. I won’t recreate our dialog here; instead, I’ll just cut right to it: sounds are metal poles you stick into a dude’s Pee Hole to make him feel all wiggly-giggly inside. JT’s Stockroom offers up an 8 pack of them for less than 90 bucks, which (I guess) some would consider a bargain.

“These elegantly edgy urethral sounds have small “rosebud” shaped tips, for stimulating as the “tip” slides in and out. Our set includes 8 sounds which have steel shafts 11″ long topped with a “rosebud” or “bullet” shaped tip, in various sizes from 5mm to 13mm around. These sounds centralize the stimulation as they work their way in. This sound set provides great thermal/temperature retention so they can be used warmed and/or cooled for even more varied stimulation. The sounds are stored in a handsome leather covered, velvet-lined zipper case.”

About the only thing that sounds even somewhat interesting to me (at this point) is the “handsome leather covered, velvet lined zipper case.” Which, if I was writing that catalog, woulda looked like “handsome, leather-covered, velvet-lined zipper case” instead.

But hey, what do I know?

Except now I’m curious, cause after they actually did it, Dude told Adrianna he felt like he was cumming the whole time she was pulling 11 inches of metal out of his ween, and trust me when I tell you I know Adrianna, and I’m sure she pulled that fucking metal out of his dick as slowly as any human could.

With a smile on her face.

Did I mention with that statement I was now curious?

he felt like he was cumming the whole time she was pulling 11 inches of metal out of his ween

And we all know Curiosity Killed The Cat: “The earliest printed reference to the origin of this proverb is attributed to British playwright Ben Jonson in his 1598 play, “Every Man in His Humour” — …Helter skelter, hang sorrow, care will kill a cat, up-tails all, and a pox on the hangman.”

I mention this to another girl, whose name I won’t mention, except she thinks it’s “hot” and, long story really short, she ends up giving me a handie and sticking her pinkie finger nail into my Pee Hole as she’s pulling on my wiener. At first, I thought I was gonna pass out. Then it was kinda ok, but certainly nothing to write home about — let along blog.

At least not in that context.

Then she stuck her index nail into my hole, and I wanted to pass out again. I think I turned green, too. Or maybe white. But she loved it, and the next thing I know she’s rubbing her beaver like nobody’s bidniss and fucking my pee hole with her fingernails, all the while filthy, dirty things about fingernails in pee holes are emitting from her mouth.

I’ll stop here, cause this ain’t none o’ yo bidniss…Yo!

Except to say a long time ago, while we were driving up and down that mountain road everyday on our way to his secret mansion, Dogfart would tell me things like, “You watch, son! Shooting porn is gonna jade you! One second fucking a blonde doggystyle is hot, and then after a year or two making dirty movies, nothing normal is ever gonna get you off. You’ll end up like me, watching hot blondes getting fucked by German Shepherds in order to blow your load.”

Yesterday, after we talked about sounds and fingernails and handjobs and pee holes, Adrianna told me the kind of fun that was on Dude’s mind next — Adrianna’s hot turd laid out on his chest, directly from the source.

Which is not to say Adrianna’s gonna do it.

But if she did, it’s funny, cause I know the soundtrack for that kind of fun is the same one for all that Pee Hole Play — just look at the cover if you don’t believe me.

Middle age came crashing down on me once more last weekend…more than it ever has, certainly since hitting 40, which, for ease of conversation and general, all-around simplicity, is my hard definition of the phrase.

And don’t give me that shit about age being a mental state of affairs, cause it’s certainly not a mental thing when my knees and back ache for no reason, and I find myself enthralled by TV shows like “Meet The Press” and “Real Time with Bill Mahr”, I don’t have to beat off every single day of the week, and I can’t read without “readers”.

Isn’t it fun to think that, at best, 40 means we’re about 1/2 done with The Show…give or take?

(Time for a brief — albeit relevant — digression: all this middle-aged whining came started before it ever really happened. Which is to say turning 30 years old was way harder for me than turning 40. Days after I hit 30, I suffered a panic attack of such enormous proportions that I was forced to pull my car to the side of the road for a half hour to concentrate on breathing deeply, cause I thought I was gonna have a heart attack. That, or lose my mind. I was living in Dallas at the time, and it’s a vivid memory. There’s a big fountain where Oak Lawn Ave. turns into Preston, and it’s in the kind of neighborhood where dudes like Big Oil and Dallas Cowboy and Brain Surgeon call home, and I panted like a dog near that fountain until I could quit shaking long enough to drive back to my near-by neighborhood…which was super gay. The neighborhood. It was super gay. Not the duplex, nor I, cause No Way Am I Gay).

Anyways, last weekend was reunion time, and I got to hang out with friends I haven’t spent time with since, oh…about 1988.

Because it’s none of your business, I won’t say anything about what brought us together; it wasn’t high-school. Besides, high school reunions are generally in the fall, and I graduated a few years before 1988.

Just a few, goddamnit.

Watching your own life unfold as time rambles on is almost as nerve-wracking and weird and mysterious as spending time with people who — over 20 years ago — were part of your life on a daily basis…and haven’t been since. If you haven’t experienced it yet, lemme tell ya, it’s fucking weird, bro.

And it just got weirder when the first one asked, “So what are you doing with yourself now, Watson?”

It’s always interesting when anyone asks me what I do for a living; in other words, it’s The Pornographer’s Dilemma — to tell The Truth or The Lie.

I reserve The Truth for either very close friends or complete strangers…and The Lie for just about everyone else.

Here’s The Lie: I design websites for a living.

Which really isn’t that much of a lie; a kernel of truth therein lies…right?

Does that even make sense?

A kernel of truth therein lies. I just Googled that, cause from some reason I thought it sounded kinda familiar, and I wanted to cover my ass on the plagiarism thing. Plus…it’s kinda gay. Almost as gay as my old neighborhood in Dallas.

Hey…wait. Can phrases be gay? How about neighborhoods?

Anyways, sometimes people have to press it, and it’s not like I blame them, and it certianly doesn’t make me mad, cause, after all, it’s just friendly conversation: what kind of sites do you design? Do you really know HTML? How about making shopping carts? Which websites do you own? Can you design mine? Lemme see some of your work!

That’s when I toss around phrases like “CGI scripts” and “PHP coding” and “server side applications”, even though I have no idea what they really mean. Which is OK, cause they don’t either. And if they do, I finally pull them aside and say, in a whisper, “I do a lot of outsourcing to places like India and the Philippines…please don’t hate me!” which shuts them up every time.

Here’s how I tell them The Truth: I make dirty movies.

Eyes grow wide when The Truth is told, and it always elicits the following: what do you mean you make dirty movies?!

“I cast actors, direct them, and hold a camera while people fuck in front of me.”

Then, they always say: You’re not serious.

I can’t explain the phenomenon that involves those first two statements always presented in that particular order. They want me to clarify what I just said, and then they follow up with a confirmation of such. After that, it gets all willy-nilly: Do you really know pornstars? Do you need an assistant? How do I get to bang the girls? Do you know Jenna Jameson? How do I get to bang the girls? Are you ever in the movies? How do I get to bang the girls? Do you need an assistant? Do your parents know? How do I get to bang the girls? Are all the girls victims of child abuse? How do I get to bang the girls? Aren’t they all on drugs? Where can I see your movies — DVD or internet? How do I get to bang the girls? Do you need an assistant? I’ll work for free! And how do I get to bang the girls? I’ll work for free! Can I have a password? I’ll work for free! Can I have a password?!

They usually end the conversation with, “you’re now my new hero”, to which I always reply, “don’t be stupid. I’m not your hero…you father should be your hero.” — and I always say that cause Jack Kerouac said it on David Frost’s TV show after Ed Sanders told him, “You’re my hero, Jack Kerouac!”

Maybe it was the Dick Cavette show.

Kerouac hated hippies, and I do, too.

Shit, why not Google that, too?

On September 3, 1968, in New York City, in the last year of his life, Jack Kerouac appeared on the William F. Buckley’s TV show “Firing Line”, along with Ed Sanders (Hippie) and Lewis Yablonsky (Chronicler of Hippiedom). Kerouac was fat and drunk and cranky as a motherfucker the last dozen years (or so) of his life: his popularity was over, The Beats were over, and no one really cared anymore.

You can watch the first 5 minutes of that show here. Pay close attention to the last few seconds when Buckley mentions hallucinogenic drugs and how Kerouac and Sanders react.

How the fuck did I end up here?

What’s this blog all about again?

Didn’t your teacher warn you about digression, and wandering off topic, and thesis statements, and defending them with all your might?

Thesis statements!

Over beers I told them I don’t need assistants, but they could come to my studio anytime and watch; there’s been a few times I’ve gotten lucky with the porn girls, but most of the time I don’t; I don’t know Jenna Jameson, but I did get a chance once to tell her I liked her book; and yes, my parents know, but my extended family doesn’t, although I think they have a pretty good idea; I didn’t answer if I was ever in a movie; I told them my movies are on the internet, and I told them about Blacks on Blondes and Manojob and The Dick Suckers and how I couldn’t really stand working with Chelci Fox, but I never say a word about No Way Am I Gay; I briefly mentioned that some of the girls probably got sexually abused when they were kids, but that’s something no one wants to talk about; I told them to e-mail me for passwords, too; and then they took turns telling me all about their lives and right in the middle of The Boredom and Commonplace they call “Life” it came to me that, through all the drama and weird shit I deal with on a daily basis, I’m one of the luckiest men alive.

At least that I know.

Pert near, anyway.

Me and Adrianna Nicole — at a corporate coffee house for our morning jolt:

“I need change for the meter,” Adrianna said. She handed me a 10, and I walk in to place our order and get some change for parking.

Suddenly, it hit. A wave of nausea so fierce I knew there would be no escape. I’d be forced to drop The Deuce in a public restroom.

I love the home field advantage when pooping, and when I’m a visitor, it’s got to be a Code Red Situation before I set my big white ass on a dirty toilet seat.

I got the order placed — as well as Adrianna’s change — and walked out to hand it to her. Adrianna’s my Poop Pal, and I wanted to tell her then what was going down in my GI tract, but I waited.

Somehow, I knew the story was going to get better.

And it did.

Corporate Coffeehouse is small, and the bathroom is right next to the place you pick up your order. I walked right in, and — thank Jesus — the seat was clean. Well…as clean as it gets. Of course your eyes can’t detect the filthy microbes swimming all over that dirty plastic seat, but when Code Red sets in, the options are always the same:

1) Poop the pants

or

2) Poop like a Big Boy.

This time, I chose Number 2.

It was immediate, and it was mighty. A giant turd. The water splashed my butt. King Turd. A Gold Medal Winner. One to make you proud.

I looked in amazement. Then flushed. King Turd swung sideways and didn’t move. Not an inch.

“A LATTE AND AN ICED COFFEE FOR BILLY! BILLY, YOUR ORDER IS READY!”

I panicked. And then I flushed again. This time there was no flush, cause there was no water in The Thingy above the toilet that has the water in it. So I waited.

Coffee Dude screamed my name again, just about the time The Thingy was full. I flushed again, and again, King Turd decided he wasn’t ready to walk towards The Light. King Turd fought for his life, and somehow I knew this was a fight he was going to win.

And the motherfucking toilet took its goddamned time refilling itself.

Coffee Dude screamed my name again.

And again, King Turd won.

So I did what any intelligent person would do…I dropped the top of the seat and hauled ass.

Coffee Dude was there, waiting. Not right there, but right there, behind the counter, looking at me as I walked out of the bathroom. I couldn’t look at Coffee Dude. In fact, I could feel my eyes look up and to the left, and any decent psychologist will tell you that sort of look means trouble.

He watched me pick up my coffee and walk to the bar, where I added my milk and sugar, and he kept his eyes on me the whole time he left his post and walked into the bathroom to see what exactly it was I did in there.

I wish I could write like David Sedaris. Cause as I walked out of Corporate Coffeehouse and to my table to tell Adrianna all about it, “Big Boy” — from Me Talk Pretty One Day — was all I could think about.

That and the contempt and hatred and utter disgust Coffee Dude had for me the very second he met — and had to deal with — King Turd.