Freddy writes:
Okay, I admit it, I sometimes (rarely, maybe once every month or two) get off to beastie porn. Why? I’m not sure, probably because I’ve jerked it to almost everything else and become jaded. I wouldn’t describe myself as a sex addict, but if I’ve got nothing else to do I could jerk it 8-10 times a day.
I’m a 24 white male, virgin. I wouldn’t attempt to describe myself as anything close to normal, but I fake it on the outside. I’ve got a pretty good job, make decent money and am pretty well liked and respected by co-workers.
I’ve always thought of porn as taboo, and it was dirty, which made it exciting. I read my first playboy at age 6, it was actually for the articles, I’m a voracious reader…
To estimate, my average pron distribution goes:
30% Submityourwife.com / submityourex.com / submityourflick / free online porn
20% Kristen Archive (porn stories)
20% Videos I downloaded from COHF/Fisting Lessons when I had a subscription (since lapsed)
10% Girls Gone Wild movies I downloaded illegally (which I haven’t done in the past 3 years, I downloaded in college when I couldn’t afford porn, now if I want it I can afford it so I pay for it.
10% Various Hardcore Videos (Seymore Butts [old Alisha Klass] videos, for some reason she really gets me going, a bunch of Aurora Snow / Jenna Haze
7% Lisa Sparxx/bdsm247/shotathome.com/Creampie Cathy/what ever weird kink site I have a current subscription to
3% Fucked Up Shit, Beastie, Piss, enema, strap on MF
Mainly it happens when I’ve been having a spankfest, maybe 10-12 times a day for a few days in a row, still horny, but regular porn is boring by now, I need something really kinky and taboo. For example there’s this very fucked up Fisting Lesson video where a girl shoves various produce up another girls ass and the girl shits it out in the other one’s mouth. Now on the surface I know this is wrong, even if the girls ass is clean and sparkly. It’s bizzare, dirty and you know they’re only doing it for the money, so late at night when no one is around and you’re jonesing for another jerk but you’re bored with everything else, you open up the video and get a little thrill in your stomach because it’s so dirty.
Again, I don’t claim to be normal or even a good person, but here’s some insight. A response would be appreciated.
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Jaded Freddy:
Let’s get one thing straight — you’re not a normal person. Anyone 24 and still a virgin isn’t normal. Anyone jerking off 10-12 times a day isn’t normal, either. But that’s OK — I’m not normal; in fact, normalcy is way overrated.
The first time I banged a chick doggystyle I blew my load in about 4 seconds. Really, I did. And I didn’t cum so quick cause I was getting laid; it was premature ejaculation due to the fact my girlfriend was doing something really naughty. Afterall, it had taken a month or so of sweet talking to get her to do it like a dog.
I have no idea on your merit as a human being. If you’re wondering if you’re “bad” cause you beat you meat to beastie porn…well, no. You’re not. Contrary to everything our churches have taught, you’re not a bad person if you masturbate. You’re jaded, and if you think you’re jaded from watching too much porn, try shooting it for seven years. I’m so fucking jaded it’s beyond jaded. The last Porno Princess I hung with called me the biggest perv she’s ever known. She said it with a smile on her face…and then she pissed all over me.
But I don’t think Golden Showers rank that high on the Perv Meter — but then again, I’m Jaded Billy. I’d certainly rank Beastie Porn right near the top…but, to me, ATM’s are fairly fucking vile. There’s a whole lot of bacteria in that butthole, and even if Porno Princess is putting her own Butt Bacteria into her mouth, it’s still Top 5.
I think a lot of times dudes who get turned on by really raunchy shit were The Wallflowers at the 8th grade dance. They’re so pissed girls didn’t pay much attention to them when they were 13 they take it out in their adulthood by consuming misogynistic porn: bukakkes, beastie, gag-her-out-til-she-pukes BJ’s, Meat Holes, Piss Mops…anything that’s produced by The Japanese or The Germans…that sort of filth.
But what do I know? I do realize shooting porn has turned me into perv — there’s no doubt about it. But I’ve never been “normal”…and, really, I don’t even have the desire. Not that there’s anything wrong with it…it just doesn’t suit me.
Sounds like it doesn’t suit you, either.
And there’s nothing wrong with that.
I 100% agree with the German/Japanese comparison. Those guys are always straight laced the only time they cut loose is when they drink. I mean the raunchy shit is cool every now and again because variety is the spice of life. But just to watch the mysogo-porn definitely means you’re probably A) Not approaching girls enough because you’re afraid B) Say some insanely stupid shit when you do C) Just a bit twisted. I knew this guy who couldn’t for the life of him speak properly to a girl. I was sitting in the library one day studying and the dude just blurts out “Women aren’t good for anything but porn!” I’m in total disagreement, women can do whatever the fuck they want, look at Barbie, she owns a convertible and been to the moon. It was sort of a WTF mate moment. Dude needed to get laid bad but didn’t have the proper mechanism and I can see how that builds resentment. It all made sense why he was always talking about the gagging and what not. Never been into the Beastie-porn, just where I drew the line, that does nothing for me, but I can see how some might like it, especially somebody with a grudge when it comes the subject of sex. Look I’m not judging anybody based on what the watch unless you’re into that pedo-shit and that’s just plain old fucked up. But hell, watch what you want, but at the same time, your distribution, hours spent, and inability to score might incline me to say, get out more.